This is me dancing on a table, aged 40 on hollybobs in Falaraki August 2012, how my life has changed in the last twelve months. I was dancing away and loving life with the girlies, we were full to the brim of vodka and sunburnt from the day of lounging by the pool, little did I know what was round the corner. Had I known then what I know now I would have partied longer, stayed out later and laughed louder! Not that I did a bad job of enjoying myself but little did I know it would be my last girlie holiday like that one. We had a brilliant time, flirting, dancing, sunbathing, behaving badly and drinking our own body weight in alcohol. I imagined that life would just continue to stay forever that way, having my freedom, dancing with cute guys and having a ball with my friends. Although I wished for love to come into my life, I didn't for one moment think that it would happen as it has, nor did I think that I would be pregnant with my first and only child a year on.
Since that holiday, I have flown on Kasakhstan airlines from Hong Kong to the UK - a truly momentous time in my life I can assure you, met some amazing people, been made redundant, started my own freelance design business, had a brief relationship and created a little life that I am currently carrying. He is at this moment dancing like his mummy in my tummy, how things have changed.
My Saturday nights no longer consist of dancing and drinking, they now revolve around a boiling kettle keeping me in tea which has become a substitute to the wine intake that I had grown accustomed to. Tonight, I am babysitting my gorgeous niece and practising my go to sleep techniques which surprisingly I am winning on and no calpol has been added so far, just the simple application of a singing bear and a bit of T.L.C. from Aunty Sarah - DONE! Don't get me wrong, my luck has played a blinder tonight and I know there will be nights when I will long for my party time but for tonight I am basking in my baby whisperer powers. No Adam! (smug brother), you cannot piss all over my strawberries by saying this is a one off - I have the sleep touch and I am going to use it.
I would normally have been dancing around Didsbury or London Town with my friends in their playgrounds of The Met and Shoreditch House but those days are gone for a while at least and a new chapter is starting for me. There are pro's and con's to my ever changing lifestyle, a con would be I miss my friends and dancing until all hours. However, the wind and rain outside are assuring me that I am not missing out on the long waits for a taxi home. I am filled with an inner feeling of smugness when Kate and Adam rock up from their night out in Chester and have battled the wet and cold to find a cash machine to pay their parking fees. In the meantime I have been all cosy and melting in front of the TV while overseeing a brand new life sleeping in front of me whilst another kicks his way out of my tummy. They have their days of dancing in front of them - I hope I don't embarrass them too much when I try to show them how it's done ha ha ha! I know these quiet days will have their window in my life but I know I will get back to my old antics one day - maybe not to the same extent, I don't think I could do the Sambuca's anymore but I will welcome the evening I get back in my gladrags and have a cheeky wine or three with the girls.
I know that I have a lot of change going on from my former playtime days but staying in and nurturing two little loved ones is worth changing for. I am extremely happy and feel very blessed. Thank you to everyone who told me I would feel that way - you know who you are and I do listen sometimes. It is a very different experience but one I am loving.
Thank you for reading my blog - you all make me smile with your lovely comments.
Sarah x
