A Broken Lady! x

I have had one of the best weekends in my life with my mum, sister, niece Erica and Nephew Archie. However, the whole weekend has broken me, emotionally, physically and mentally.

It has been none stop. 6am ish starts, if you know me - not a good look at all. Full on breakfasts, playing in garden by 7 am ish, Visiting friends, tourist attractions, shopping for yet more shoes for Erica( girl after my own heart), parks, beer gardens that substitute as parks - bonus!, more cooking than you can shake a stick at, tantrums, cuddles, banter, wine, wine and even more wine, cake and last but not least the dreaded cold and sore throat that has now left me a broken woman on a sofa.

I am completely shattered! The cold has set in - I have a husky voice(the only bonus to this whole event), heavy eyes, razor blades in the throat, a hot streaming runny nose, emotional wreck and the occassional sneeze - not even enjoying them - normally enjoy a sneeze! Too much information.

These kids have destroyed me, Erica has cracked me up with her continuous comedy delivery which I have been streaming live all weekend on Facebook. Then when she caught me crying, because I am tired, grumpy, minus a personality and not well alright! I told her it was because she would be going home later and she said - "I know Aunty Sarah, but I didn't cry when my daddy went back to Hong Kong, I wanted to but I didn't". Broken! by a four year old who has out performed me in the farewell stakes - bloody brilliant. She has truly broken my heart this weekend because she is a real joy to be around and I am going to miss her. I am upset with myself for being ill & grumpy on their last day here with me and yet I am not grumpy with the culprits who have dribbled and snot boxed on me all weekend. It's probably made me love them even more - it doesn't even bother me that Archie even took the kids to the pool on my decking in the garden - cheeky chimp!

From this weekend I will miss Archie's beep beep beeping as we reversed the car, Erica's stroppy tantrums (not) for yet another pair of shoes (10th and counting), Laura's constant flow of banter, Mum's cuddles with the kids and little quiet moments with them on the sofa, Archie's outburst's of the words, boobie's, ratbag and newly introduced Chopper (yes - refering to his willy), Erica's sincerity - however hurtful "aunty sarah - your singing is boring - my guilty pleasure in this world by the way Erica! and the countless toys that littered my designer pad! You have all destroyed my perfect little world of me and my bachelorette pad. I was very happy on my own, then you lot made it happier and now you have buggered off and left me - well screw you! Only joking! Come back whenever you want - to take away, my health, wealth, tidiness, sleep and heart, you have all been brilliant this weekend and although broken, I am fixed in the love department, banked this weekend in the bank of notes to self - I am truly blessed. I have another niece and nephew too who equally crack me up - must get a love fix with them soon.

Thanks for tuning in to what has probably been one of the most emotional blogs of late! Who breaks you but fixes you at the same time? Discuss?

Thanks for tuning in.

Stan xx