I blame my thyroid!........

I have a thyroid problem - it is under active - which is not very helpful to my happiness! I would say that 99% of my life hiccups are down to my broken thyroid, I empathise with you if you have a similar problem. The symptoms of an under active thyroid are as follows - You can get very hormental, your energy levels can drop dramatically - I can fall asleep anywhere, you gain weight, you have a low tolerance to cold temperatures, you can get numbness in you hands and you can be quite forgetful. My thyroid has hampered my love life, my waistline, my memory and my energy. I have suffered for years with this affliction but I was only diagnosed eight years ago. It's a pain because it ultimately costs me a fortune.

Today, I have travelled back from my friends house in Manchester only to realise I have left my research file for my India trip there and I am off to India on Monday - going to have to drive back and retrieve it - what a doughnut! This little mishap has become the norm with me, it used to really upset me when I didn't know why I was so painfully forgetful. I have played some blinders, on my holiday to Honkers Konkers for New Year I left my work laptop on the plane, it was never found and as it was a works laptop, I lost all my work, it wasn't insured as it was on lease and I was not very popular as a result. You can see how it damages my relationships, but I am really lucky to have great friends - I am always forgiven and they realise it is because I am a bit broken.

I have damaged relationships, when hormental, tired and grumpy I am not the easiest person to be around. Zoe one of my bessie's knows this, I have displayed my ugly side in the form of crying on the grass because I was too cold and tired, needed sleep - like a child! Bless her, it is a wonder she still speaks to me. Barbara has also experienced the nuts Sarah on numerous occasions - used to call her on a daily basis when I was in that awful flat in London and had Camden rat people banging on my windows asking for sugar, couldn't get out of the flat one morning because the door had swollen due to the damp and she once nearly went blue in the face with me because I was adamant it was all about black and white for Xmas that season. It's funny now when you look at what stresses me out - it's never that important but when I am not well I cannot cope with the hiccups of life. When well I am a fountain and can just assume that all will come good in the end.

My mum and my friends can generally tell if my levels are not right. If I am being a bit hormental my mum can hear it in my voice and will say - "have you taken your tablets today?", I then either snap at her as if to say what do mean by that (yes hormental) or I have to explain that I have ran out because I have forgotten to go to the doctors or that I have just forgotten to take them. My thyroid tablets act like a weight on a pair of scales - when I am on the right level and taking them daily I am quite balanced with just a few hiccups of forgetfulness, however, without the right level of medication I am totally irrational, tired, grumpy, cold & challenging to say the least! I really do have to make sure I take my medicine or it is only fair that my friends and family are in their full rights to tell me off.

If you ever have any of these symptoms please go and see your doctor - marriages and friendships are at stake - no-one should have to live with someone who has gained weight, can cry over nothing and forgets to look after themselves and their possessions.

I am the happiest I have ever been at the moment even though I have no phone - lost that last week, I have no boyfriend but I have my friends and freedom, I have no money but I have a gorgeous home and car. See the thyroid is working - when the chips are down if it is working I can cope and I am happy bunny - if it broken I am miserable fooker. I apologise to all of you who love me even when the thyroid is broken - you are true friends.

Thank you for tuning in........ have you any tricky ailments - discuss!

Stan x